Expectations

Expectation, one's life is just reduced to satisfying expectations. Be it school, college or a job, one is always satisying expectations of one's parents, friends or colleagues. Why can't i do what I want? Why am I afraid?

And these expectations are just like a company's forecasts. Once you surpass it once, the expectations just rise a notch higher. One cannot satisfy or meet them all one's life but still one is forced (I say forced as it is somehow implied) to meet everyone's expectations. Its a vicious cycle, a term I learnt with Ogden's Nash's poem about a visit to a dentist.

I hate my job, I rather wan't to do something that makes me happy. But I cannot do so. I am expected to  earn and that too handsomely and live a happy life. but that is not what I want? that is not what will keep me happy? I am sad. I want to do something I love. Although after leading a life of meeting or trying to meet the expectations I have forgotten what I truly love. I really don't know what I love nor what I want.